books to beat the winter blues...or what I'm reading to keep from moping

Still reading COLONIZE THIS!

Also began reading a zine about domestic violence, which I started reading a while back, put down and then found again on Friday when I was sorting through my overflowing envelopes of unread zines to figure out what I was realistically ever going to read and what would just take up space in that envelope forever.

And last night I got a back issue of COLORLINES and started that. In an article about teaching self-defense to Asian-Americans, the teacher said/wrote this and it really struck me:

"There's a concept called trauma mastery, which explains that people get into these fields, like self-defense or emergency room work or even organizing, because they've had trauma in their own lives that they want to fix. You revisit that trauma over and over again in other people to save that one person you couldn't save before. But there's always a gap between your motivation and the work because you can never master a trauma, you can never save that person because it's already happened, it's done.

"If you don't know why you're doing what you're doing, you start to blame the participants... You start to feel like you're the only person who can do the job, like tihs is my crusade. You see only black and white, you can't see shades. The only way we can prevent that is to really ask that question, why I am doing what I'm doing? That is the most important thing to come clean about."

Those two paragraphs really struck me and reminded me as to why I do what I do and why I push myself so hard. But that, I think, should be the topic of a 300 words and not my reading list for the day.

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I finished The Poisonwood

I finished The Poisonwood Bible and also a book by Jane Goodall, In the Shadow of Man.

Jane Goodall just impresses the heck out of me. She started her work at Gombe with no degree and no background in zoology. Louis Leakey said he figured that would be a plus -- no preconceptions. And she wandered around Gombe finding her own way with no African guide almost from the first. She also had phenomenal patience. If I'd had to wait that long just to get close enough to see the objects of my research, much less make any useful observations, I'd have quit and gone home to my airconditioning.

Right now I'm reading a collection of Western short stories, all winners of the Golden Spur. I'm not sure how I feel about this. I've only read a few of the stories, and so far none of them have even touched on the issue of Native Americans. I knew from the get-go that I would probably be unhappy with the book for exactly this reason, but I still wanted to read it out of curiosity. At least it's a library book -- I wouldn't want to pay for this.

that's funny- I just

that's funny- I just finished Poisonwood Bible too and a good friend of mine suggested that I read Jane Goodall- so it is on my list of things to read too. The same friend recommended The Man Who Fell in Love with the Moon can't think of the author offhand, and I'm too lazy to run downstairs and find it- but it is also a Western.

Annie Dillard

I'm reading Annie Dillard's Pilgrim at Tinker Creek right now and really, I just want to be her. I love love love this book.

"Out" by Natsuo Kirino

I just finished reading this book last night - I really really like it. Has any one esle read it? Natsuo Kirino is the most successful murder-mystery writer in Japan and this is her first translated to english book

It has "middle age" characters with teenagers and a night shift at the factory job and chopping up people. Excellent. all this time I've felt so alone as a mother of teen, I should have turned to lititure more.

it lingers in me today. was pretty intense. I wasn't sure about a part at the end

I've finished My Antonia,

I've finished My Antonia, which means I really am done with Willa Cather for now. I may very well come back to her, however. I like her books. I don't, however, see why My Antonia is seen as her best work, as opposed to Death Comes for the Archbishop. Both of them are excellent, if a little on the relaxed side. But then, most "literary" writing is on the relaxed side; if you're going for a page-turner, you're more likely to find it over in fantasy or science fiction.

I'm about halfway through The Poisonwood Bible. The urge to shake Nathan into some sense is just about overwhelming. I enjoy Adah's surprisingly clear vision of exactly what the family's place in the community is, and isn't, and I'm waiting to see where Leah's awakening takes her. Orleanna looks to be developing a troublesome mind of her own, as well.

I'm going to go dig through the library basket and see what I'm going to be reading side-by-side with Poisonwood.

what I'm skimming because it's due today

and I've reached my quota of renewals:

"American Indian Activism: Alcatraz to the Longest Walk" edited by Troy Johnson, Joane Nagel & Duane Champagne.

Right now, I'm reading an essay by former AIM activist Karren Baird-Olson. In 1976, she took a cross-country trip with her three kids to protest the American Bicentennial events in DC:

"The unaware have often expressed amazement that a single woman would travel with 3 children across the country, as well as take an active part in protesting against the abuses of the U.S. govt. In the first place, I was used to driving across the country by myself, but during this trip I was not alone. 3 responsible young people--2 teenagers (one 17 and one 16) and a preteenager of 12--were with me. More important, I wanted my children to know that they did not have to be passive victims, that they could make positive changes not only in their own lives but also in the lives of others if they had the courage to take action, to do something."

While trying to show her daughters the BIA office that had been occupied four years earlier at the end of the Trail of Broken Treaties, she, her daughters and the other Native parents and children were surrounded by the police (or whatever law enforcement in DC are called). She said that she told her daughters to leave, but her daughters (17 and 12) refused. They were all manhandled, thrown onto the cement (Baird-Olson reported that her face was ground into the cement) and arrested. At the jail, the officials refused to tell them where their children were being held.

In court, all charges (not that they were told what charges had been brought against them) were dropped.

Later, she writes: "My children tell me that my activism as well as theirs has taught me that they do not have to keep silent about injustice, as so many of their ancestors were forced to do. They have learned that individuals can make a difference, and a united people can make an even bigger difference in ensuring a world where equity is given more than lip service."

I'm done with Willa Cather

I'm done with Willa Cather for the moment. I finished A Lost Lady and that's it until I take My Antonia out of the library. I'm almost ready for a trip there; I think that the book I'm reading right now, Something Rotten by Jasper Fforde, is my last library book.

YA Fix: Flush by Carl

YA Fix: Flush by Carl Hiaasen
Feminist Sci-Fi Kick: Glory Season by David Brin

Okay. It was a short

Okay. It was a short moment, and now I'm into My Antonia. Willa Cather writes deep books, but not fast ones. I think I'll finish this one quickly, though. I like it.

My reading this week is mostly fairly light stuff -- I think the Cather is the only "serious literature" I brought home from the library. I got The Big Over Easy, by Jasper Fforde. I'm saving that one for last!

I should dig out Crescent and finish it. I liked it; it's just that I was reading it over the chaos over my mother-in-law's accident and serious surgery, and when I got distracted, that was it. Actually, I think there are several half-read books from that time, but I won't finish them until I come across them on the shelves, which given the state of our shelves could be awhile.

Is that a new Thursday Next

Is that a new Thursday Next book?! I need one...

I'm not sure, since I

I'm not sure, since I haven't opened it yet, but I think it's in a related universe, but not with Thursday Next. Humpty-Dumpty gets murdered ... Ye gods, that's so funny!

I'm reading The Well of Lost

I'm reading The Well of Lost Plots by Jasper Fforde, and unbelievably, it's even funnier than his first two Thursday Next books. I keep laughing out loud, which is very good for me.

I've just started Willa Cather's Death Comes for the Archbishop. It's intriguing, but not page-turning, or at least not yet. I'm still in the early stages, though, so we'll see. And "not page-turning" isn't necessarly a criticism, just an observation; as I get older I become more and more comfortable with books that take their time.

I'm also reading Low Fat Living, another book from my mother. She knows I'm a bit concerned about the fact that my meds have taken me from slender and beautiful to plump and beautiful, so she figures I might find the book helpful. I hope she's right -- my knees don't love me any more.

I LOVE the Thursday Next

I LOVE the Thursday Next books. I cannot wait for more - he had better write some more!

I've been reading a handful

I've been reading a handful of YA fiction books:

Rats Saw God
Capt. Hook
Out of Order
The Killer's Cousin

while still working on Literary Mama. I am wealthy with books right now - I have a whole stash of "boughten" ones waiting plus several due to show up soon from ILL at the library. This generally makes me feel rich and secure when it happens, but a lot is going wrong in my life right now so I think it is just keeping me afloat. Thank goodness for good books!

Thank goodness for good

Thank goodness for good books!

Amen. I can't imagine how I would get through the tough patches without a book for breaks.

I finished up The Edible

I finished up The Edible Woman and also read another book called When the Last Leaf Falls. Leaf turned out to be Christian inspirational literature, which was a disappointment; I couldn't tell you anything about the literary value of the book because I was so busy being cranky about the theology.

Now I've started The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood. It's very different from The Edible Woman, but I can definitely hear tonal and stylistic similarities with Cat's Eye.

Literary Mama, in

Literary Mama, in preparation for the blog book tour!

Now it's a collection of

Now it's a collection of short stories by Patricia McKillip, called Harrowing the Dragon. I love McKillip (and I'd already read "Harrowing the Dragon of Hoarsbreath") so I figured this would be a nice light choice. Right on the button. Loving it.

Just finished Poisonwood

Just finished Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver. Quite possibly the best book I have ever read. One of those books that leaves behind a permanent hole in your gut.

I decided to keep a list of

I decided to keep a list of the books I've read this year, and it occurred to me a day or two ago that I ought to keep a list of the interesting books that people keep mentioning and whose titles I keep forgetting when I'm in the bookstore. I've just added Poisonwood Bible to the list. Thanks for reminding me!

I'm reading "Oryx and Crake"

I'm reading "Oryx and Crake" by Margaret Atwood. I've kinda been waiting to read it -- I kept hearing about it, but not remembering it when I was actually in a bookstore. I knew I liked her work -- "The Handmaid's Tale" was excellent and extremely disturbing, and "Catseye" was one of my favorite books -- but I just hadn't picked this one up. So far, it's engaging, although somewhat bemusing. I can't wait to reach the end to find out how this confusion works out.

It is possibly the most

It is possibly the most depressing book ever written, FYI.It really was fascinating, though.

Yeah, so far it does not

Yeah, so far it does not look like something I'll be hauling out for comfort reading on grey winter days! Thanks for the heads up.

"The Blind Assassin" is my

"The Blind Assassin" is my favorite of hers, followed closely by "Alias Grace"-- maybe try those, I haven't read "O & C".

Now that I've finished

Now that I've finished Nabokov's Glory, I'm reading her book, The Edible Woman. I have The Blind Assassing out from the library, too. I'm trying to to more actual reading this year, and less picking up and rereading stuff I've already read 1000 times.

so now I'm reading this

so now I'm reading this book, another one sent to me by some wonderful person during the time that we had to stay out of new orleans, called the secret life of eve hathaway. and it's at once entertaining and disturbing! like, she'll say something like, "I'm just a whore from new jersey" and I love her and then she'll have this disturbing take on race, sex, etc. and I just recoil. it's from the 80s but in many ways it feels kinda 50s to me. except for the sex.
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I keep finding that I need

I keep finding that I need comfort books to keep me from getting way, way down these days. so first I re-read all of the sue grafton mysteries I own, and right now I'm reading By The Shores of Silver Lake...
I read Oryx & Crake by margaret atwood (my favorite) a couple of weeks ago, and it was beautiful, but I think an apocalyptic tale was too disturbing for me right now, living in this place that feels somewhat apocalyptic already.
I'm going to the library tomorrow to check out chanuka & kwanzaa books for my work. we can check books out but we can't order them from the larger city collection - know what I mean? which is really frustrating for me as a reader. but I'm going to dig for something gritty yet lightweight. you know, bloody is okay as long as it removed from reality. for some reason.
or it can be sad, but with some resolution. like, china sent me the bean trees and I really, really enjoyed it.
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It has a sequel called Pigs

It has a sequel called Pigs In Heaven or something like that, coleen. Not nearly as good but okay. Have you read the mommy-track mysteries? sort of fun light reading. I also go for YA fiction to rest the brain.

The No. 1 Ladies Detective

The No. 1 Ladies Detective Agency books are fun easy reads too-

Yep - Pigs In Heaven is a

Yep - Pigs In Heaven is a sequel to Bean Trees. Bean Trees is my second favorite book. Hey, coleen - did you get the money I sent for mama calendars? Sorry it was so late.

yeah, I just did - I'll mail

yeah, I just did - I'll mail them eout tomorrow.
thank you!

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pigs in heaven is the sequel

pigs in heaven is the sequel to the bean trees?!
a friend of mine has that.
the library is totally letting me down.
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Prodigal Summer

by Barbara Kingsolver. Nice winter read-

Just wanted to postscript

Just wanted to postscript this because I just finished this one and it was great. Anyone who wants to daydream about living out in the wilderness would like it. I just ordered Poisonwood Bible by her too which I've heard is good. And now I'm going to have to find the Bean Trees- I didn't realize she wrote that one too. Also I just started The Passionate Spectator by Eric Kraft. It is one in a series of books about a fictional character named Peter Leroy who is a memoir writer who constructs his memoirs out of "real" and imaginary characters. Funny setup- I think most writers would appreciate it.

not that I finished any of the other things I listed

earlier this month, but I started a couple of other books that I'd put on hold at the library and so need to get through more quickly:

*biography of Anzia Yezierska written by her daughter

*history of Hong Kong written by a HK historian (as opposed to a western one)

*Community assessment of my daughter's former Early Head Start program (okay,that's *not* a library book,but I'm onadeadline with that)

*1970s book on rape by the NY Radical Feminists

Coraline was just about the

Coraline was just about the scariest ass book I ever read! Those button eyes! I warned my friend with a children's bookstore to warn people who buy it! I read it several years ago and I still get the shivers about it!

Coraline

My 9 year old son just finished reading it and thought it was great.
Regina
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Brave child. I can't handle

Brave child. I can't handle that book myself (it was good, though); my ten yo would be clinging to my clothing for months if she read it.

Zanna - is she the one that

Zanna - is she the one that wrote TamLin for that faerie tale series? I love that book.

Just finished reading Gate

Just finished reading Gate to The Women's Country and Singer From The Sea by Sherri Tepper and am reading Hold On To Your Kids by ...some dude. It's pretty good, though, if you can ignore his dudeness.

I'm reading -

"To Kill a Mockingbird" by Harper Lee

its an old paperback and all the pages are very yellow, with tiny type, and they were already falling out (but kept in order) when I got the book. So I read a page, often just hold a page in my hand, and then put it down on the stack.

it feels so ethmereal. like writing is really nothing. but thought. and pen and paper. the little yellow pages falling from me as I start to envision her story.... loving being able to see what Truman Capote was like as a child, her neighbor and oldest friend.

I'll never be able to write like her. Not with my own childhood of pop rocks and tv and experimental writers.

I'm enjoying the experience. Next I want to read "Breakfast at Tiffanys"

i read Corralee - shoot , thats not it

And everyone says her name wrong in the story too!

Its something like that, by Neil Gaiman

last night and I got scared sometimes! I was like a little child with my bedtime story!
I am really into reading all of a sudden. I kind of fell out of it before- more into reading stuff on the internet, editing my own things and so forth. Sometimes when I write alot I don't read other peoples stuff.

but lately I've discovered the Joys of reading again, it seems

P.S. my book came with a little note about talking cats and reading this book when I felt like escaping. Unexpected books in the mail with little notes attached ARE The Best!

coraline!

coraline! :)

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reading the 3rd book of ruth

reading the 3rd book of ruth reichl's memoirs, called "Garlic and Sapphires: The Secret Life of a Critic in Disguise." she is so much fun. great winter blahs book. (i thought the 2nd book was a downer, though, so stick to this one and "Tender at the Bone.")

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Just finished Daughter of

Just finished Daughter of Elysium by Joan Slonczewski. Now I've read all her books but one that I still have on ILL request. I just LOVE her books. I wish she would write a lot more on the Sharer universe. I have a bunch of not-too interesting stuff I took out from the library now, but I feel a feminist sci-fi phase coming on.

I'm trying to get through

I'm trying to get through "Gilead," by Marilynne Robinson, which has been frustrating me for a year or so now. It's a beautiful, heart-stopping book, just like "Housekeeping," her other novel (both Pulitzer winners, or Nobel, something big), but it's the kind of book that deserves to be adored, savored, experienced-- not gulped down quickly between snacks and tantrums. What I really want is to just rent a hotel room for a day and just READ and READ until I've read the whole thing, front to back. Twice.

exactly

I feel exactly the same way about Gilead. I'm about half way through. I feel like the writing is beautiful, but it's a little lonely and slow-going to read these thoughts of a dying man. So with the hectic pace of life right now I am opting for some easy and page-turning Philippa Gregory instead. Maybe I'll get back to Gilead in the new year.

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i finally finished it,

i finally finished it, artchair, and it was well worth it-- the plot picks up steam and surprises as it moves along, and I cried at the ending, which I seem to be doing a lot lately-- the other day I cried when I reread "Brokeback Mountain," and then again when I reread "The House of Mirth"!

Thanks that's great

Thanks that's great feedback! I'll try to get back to it.

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Drugs are Nice by Lisa Carver

I read her zine RollerDerby for a long time and its neat to read about her life behind the scenes of that, so much is familiar to me from hearing about bits and seeing pictures in her zine.

I always felt kinda weird about liking rollerderby, like it was kinda bad, an indulgence, yet so agreeable to me in my basest instincts and also this wonderful lotus type writing floating up out of it. and I remember again, I do like Lisa Carver. she is quete something. Not everyday do we get women, and then mother figures to experience this kind of life on the edge cultural phenomena