yesterday was my extention and I didn't turn anything in. Basically I just decided that I can't do it this time. I tried! But I have this 4000 plus wooly incoherent essay I keep adding too that I can't shape up into anything. I also feel like I have forgotten how to write. Muffy Bolding gave me a pep talk and said that for all writers, on every new project, they feel like they forgot how to write!

my idea this new morning is to take a survey - could you please please please help me!

I figure if I pick one of the themes in my essay, and concentrate on that and rounding out, fixing that, then I could have an essay to turn in ASAP. All together - its just too much. So here possible topics, each one would be a good one although I know they don't sound on theme, they actually all are.

My Mamaphile essay survey: What element should I concentrate on?
Please vote with a number ASAP -

1. Staying Away (about I. I wrote two paragraphs about a conversation he and i had about "home" being finding that person you love - that I really like. I would just add a third paragraph about how I am never going to talk to this deadly individual again, I swear, who I have slept with, intermittedly, through the last 7 girls he has been with)

2. Pack Rat memmories- clearing out my writers studio so a new young girl who needs a home can move in - grandmother moving out of her house at 88- getting rid of things

3. poor home ownership - its stress - thinking about selling my house - but glad I didn't and staying and facing problems.

4. daughter is old enough to move out, but hasn't, I stayed still for her to finish her teen years, and now that she almost has, I consider being the one moving out - and what that all means to me

5. my bi-polar type emotions, how I am overwhelmed and feel broken and then the feeling of coming home to myself again - picking up and going on, doing what I can do, and coming home to sanity. (unfortunately I have already been greeted by the dark house of depression since I started writing that on that theme. so I'm not sure its good to end on this happy note, like I've come home to my sanity when I am so in and out on that one)

I tried to tackle all these themes in one long unruly essay that is too much for me now, so I thought if I took an element and focused on that, then I could get it done and send in something - and that would be better than nothing.

thanks,
xo